Maja Chwalinska, 20, admitted she had "dark thoughts" during the darkest period of her life and added she wouldn't wish depression on anyone.
Chwalinska, a former world No. 192, took a break from tennis after this year's Wimbledon due to depression. Chwalinska returned to the court in October and since then she has made four doubles finals on the ITF circuit.
"Did you have black thoughts?"
"I did" "Let's not go into such details but yes, there were black thoughts"
20yo Maja Chwalinska came back in October after announcing in Wimbledon she needed a break from tennis due to depression, started in late 2019.
"Nowadays we use this word (depressed) a lot, and people don't really know what it is. It is difficult to describe. I don't think you can understand until you have experienced it on yourself. But I don't wish anyone to feel it.
It is not a nice experience," Chwalinska said, as revealed by Diego Barbiani. "For me it started on the court. Something that I enjoyed the most suddenly became a source of suffering. I associated tennis with pressure, stress, crying.
That's what every training session was like for me."
Chwalinska didn't want to leave her hourse
"Then, of course, it translated into my life off the court. I had no desire for anything. Not at all. In fact, I didn't even want to leave my house.
There were days, actually lot of days, where I cried because I had to leave. I would have loved to lock myself in a room and not talk to anyone," Chwalinska added.
Naomi Osaka, a four-time Grand Slam champion, was the biggest name in the sport to come out and speak openly about mental health.
she says she's fine and that she was able to get out of that deep hole, but her answer on how her feelings were in that time is...
Former world No. 1 Osaka revealed battles with depression and anxiety at this year's French open. “I never wanted to be a distraction and I accept that my timing was not ideal and my message could have been clearer,” Osaka said at the French Open.
“The truth is that I have suffered long bouts of depression since the US Open in 2018 and I have had a really hard time coping with that”.