Brit Number 5 Katie Swan recently spoke about her comeback to tennis by overcoming her demons as she is upbeat about the grass court season. Swan said, "I love competing, I'm really competitive. That's one of the things I lost over the last few months - my competitive spirit and the fighter that I have in me.
When I realised those were the main reasons I do this, I had to change. I needed to get that back”. "It was the week before the Fed Cup tie at the Copper Box. I said to my mum on the phone: 'I don't think I should go, I really don't think I deserve to be there, I don't feel like I am ready to be part of this team'”.
Further speaking about her conversation with her mother, she added, "She really pushed me to go and I was really glad that I did because it was an amazing experience. But still, within myself, after that I did not feel great.
I actually went back to America for a week when I was supposed to start the clay season earlier”. “I went back home because I felt I needed a mental break from tennis. I didn't touch my rackets for a week. For a few tournaments I felt like my nerves were overwhelming.
It was really hard to go out and play because I really could not focus on the match”. "I was focusing too much on external things. I would literally be 10 minutes into a practice and become so negative. I would get so down on myself when nothing had really happened.
I was just struggling to find the reason why I was doing this”. Looking forward to the grass court season, Swan added, "I'm really excited. A few months ago I was not even sure that I wanted to play the grass court season.
It's a lot of pressure for British players, with all the media, crowds and wildcards”. "It's completely changed now. I am so excited and I am not putting any pressure on myself in terms of results. I know I have the game to do well. If I have a good mindset then I know good things will happen."